Over the past couple of weeks, I’ve been thinking about how my reactions to certain situations have been. The past year hasn’t necessarily been the most peachy, nor can I claim it to be a total wash-out. But what really struck me is the change in my behavior or reactions to certain issues. It intrigued me to try to decipher if this is due to a change in my attitude or if it was just a phase?
I remember myself, during my years through school and college, up until my first post-grad degree, as a quiet introvert character, although also very impatient for results. I also used to get angry over things, especially when the results weren’t forthcoming or they weren’t exactly as expected. During that time, I used to feel deflated, crabby, and rude to the extent of making me probably a little too annoying to my audience. In essence, I had this whole negativity visibly emanating from my being. (Maybe taking things to a little of an extreme here, but people who’ve seen me at the time, know what I’m trying to say here.)
But lately, I have become more prone to be cynical or even satirical and try to laugh off some situations/issues when they seem to be going awry, in spite of not seeing a visible change in my impatient streak. Does this mean I’m thinking in a positive light, and accepting that things really can’t almost always happen like I expect them to? If that is so, then it means that I’ve learnt some patience on the way, which is a good thing. But what if I’m using this method to veil my negativity or the anger of not achieving the result? Is that a good thing?
Which brings me my next question, If attitude is broadly classified as positive and negative, what attributes define attitude – the ability to shrug off an undesired issue, by using whatever means, or the ability to convert the undesired into a desired result?
Also, in case anyone has the time to read this post, how do you deal with dips in your attitude?
